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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

SHARING THE GOODS

Kisah yang baik tuk dijadikan teladan. 
Malas nak bebel panjang2 kali ni.


          Sesungguhnya kita ni hanya manusia biasa yang tak pernah lepas dari silap. Untuk menjadi seorang yang baik, sempurna akal fikiran serta budi pekerti, ianya boleh dilakukan dengan memperbaiki diri diatas kesilapan yang telah dilakukan. Memaafkan dan mengaku akan kesilapan serta kekhilafan diri adalah satu titik permulaan kepada kebaikan yang sempurna. Ianya tidak lah mudah tapi bukan mustahil.


Salam sayang,
Snave Guy Lavoie JR aka Jerung Rimba Putih
Yang Merindui.

YOURE JUST TOO PERFECT

        
          30 March 2010. Tuesday - Woke up early this morning, dawn at 4am, think so. I didn't manage to sleep very comfort that night as the heart is bleeding. The numb feeling is still there. Leaning to the wall and just staring to the chair. I'm lost. Yes, I'm very2 lost by that time. There's just too much to be think about. As the heart is still injured. I just sat there and keep losing myself.

         I try to brave myself to see the sunshine right this morning. Yes, it's smiled at me. So I'm hiding the pain and try to act normal. I skiped the morning-jog as the heart not really wanna go for  that. Then I just went outside of the house, sat with dad n mum beside me. I feel very calm that time while sipping the drink to the last drop.

          So, I start my day again as usual but not with in the same mood. Arrived to the office a bit late as the bus move like bloody-numb-hell. 30kmj-40kmj I think. Fcuk with that one! But the boss wasn't there by the time I'm arrived. The boss dont really care also if I come late.

          And I was there. Sitting quietly. Clicking here and there. And for a couple of hours after I shout something to my FB account. Try to speak-out what my heart wanna say. There's a couple of comments replied. Dunno how and why and something happened. Seriously, I dont really care for what happened there. As I try to backup what good for my side and suddenly I got blame also. I'm not really into that scene. And STILL i got the blame. Even I just stay sit at my chair, and suddenly the whole day spoiled. Dunno why every single problem that happened much be related to me. Every single problems that happened is being related to me. Why?

         I pack-up my stuffs and go home. I don't really care anymore what the boss will say. I close the office at around 12pm today. The boss did call me but I just don't care about it. The family really shocked to see me arrived for home really. That that, I skipped my futsal training. I didn't really pick-up all the calls. I just lock myself in my room. Thanks for MrZZZ for the jokes. He always the when I was down. But I didn't really disturb MrShinyHead as I know that he is not really ok. That what refer to his blog.

         And YOU. I think you know how much I really care for you right? How much I love you. I don't really care for all the insults you put on me. As I know that you do that because you love me. With that, thanks you again for the love you gave to me. The love you try to show me. Its just YOU, you're just too PERFECT for me. And I'm really that ashamed with myself.

Much Love,
Snave Guy Lavoie JR

Sunday, March 28, 2010

LATER WHEN...

Hebat menafsirkan setiap pergerakan fikiran dan cuba tafsir yang ni. 
YAH! Itulah rasa hatiku kini.

 

NAFF Band - Bila Nanti Kau Milikku

Temani.. Temani aku
Temani.. Temani aku
Bila nanti kau milikku
Bila nanti aku milikmu
 
Mencintaimu kurasakan begitu indah
Kasih sayangmu kurasakan sungguh sempurna
Ku bahagia bila ragamu di sampingku
Ku merasa tenang bila tanganmu memelukku

Temani.. Temani aku
Temani.. Temani aku

Menyayangimu kulakukan setulus hatiku
Mengagumi membuatku merasa tenang
Ku bahagia bila ragamu di sampingku
Ku merasa tenang bila tanganmu memelukku

Bila nanti kau milikku
Temani aku saat aku menangis
Bila nanti aku milikmu
Temani aku hingga tutup usiaku
 
Temani.. Temani aku
Temani.. Temani aku
Bila nanti kau milikku
Bila nanti aku milikmu

          Lagu yang baik itu biasanya bukan dicipta untuk suka2 tapi ia datang daripada pengalaman atau perasaan hati masa itu. Lagu sedap tapi lirik tunggang-langgang buat apa? Sama lah mcm penyanyi rocker kapak yg mengangguk ganas pastu jatuh stage... sama yg mcm Steven Tyler buat.... Feel dan mood dah ngam tapi tetiber spoil..

          Lagu yang baik adalah lagu yang walaupun simple tapi tone lagu dia sangat2 meninggalkan kesan dalam hati. Ditambah lagi dengan lirik2 yg cukup mendalam. Padat dalam ertikata lainnya. Contohnya lagu nie.

UNTUK INSAN TERCINTA : Tafsirlah lagu ni, kalau kau rasa aku ni slalu nak sakitkan hati kau. Itulah rasa hati aku yang dari mula tersimpan dan yang slalu kau salahertikan. Sejuta tahun pun salahmu aku tak merunggut melainkan kau menyedarinya sendiri. Sekali lagi, KAU TERLALU SEMPURNA. CUKUP SEMPURNA. Tapi ingatlah, kita didunia dan bukan disyurga.

Salam sayang,

Jerung Rimba Putih

THANK YOU!

 
  
Ungu – Syukur Alhamdulillah

Slalu kusakiti Engkau dengan dosaku
Ku balas semua kebaikan-Mu dengan kecurangan
Tiada pernah ku menyadari semuanya
Bahwa nafas yang ku hirup adalah kuasa-Mu

**Alhamdulillah ku syukuri semua
  Terimakasih ku Ya Allah
  Atas indahnya hidup

**Alhamdulillah ku syukuri semua
  Terimakasih ku Ya Robbi
  Atas rahmat dalam hidupku

Slalu ku tinggalkan Engkau dengan khilafku
Kubalas semua kemurahan-Mu dengan keburukan
Tiada pernah ku menyadari semuanya
Bahwa nafas yang ku hirup adalah kuasa-Mu

          Saya sangat jatuh cinta dengan lagu ni. Yelah walau kadang kita slalu merungut pasal hidup tapi kita harus tau yang ada lagi manusia lain didunia yang kurang berupaya dari kita tapi mereka tidak pernah merasakan yang hidup mereka itu perlu disia2 kan dengan berputus asa ataupun merungut dengan kekurangan mereka. Jadilah manusia yang tahu menghargai diri dan orang lain serta tahu erti bersyukur.

          Anda boleh mengatakan saya munafik dengan ini tapi lihat lah diri masing2... cukupkah bekalan anda didunia untuk menuju pintu kebahagiaan-Nya? 

Salam sayang, 
Jerung Rimba Putih

MY ALL TIME LOVER


           Rasanya pada post  yang lepas tu ada menceritakan alkisah mengenai Blacky Bear aku nie kan? Tengok kat sini. Blacky Bear. Dia ok sebenarnya, kalo ON kan, dia bleh guna mcm biasa tapi dalam masa beberapa minit selepas tu dia langsung takleh tekan apa2 kecuali butang On/Off tu. Sedih lah jugak sbab aku sayang gila kat dia. huwaaaaaaa......


           Aku tak sanggup tengok dia terperuk dalam laci tu je . So hari Rabu lepas aku dah hantar dah dia kat Nokia Centre. Sebelum pegi latihan and friendly-match futsal kat Jesselton, aku pergi lah kat Nokia Centre kat CP. And tanya punya tanya then officer tu ckap handpon tu kena check dulu then baru bleh bagi harga. Lepas tu baru ikut keputusan customer nak trus buat atau tak. Kalo tanak buat kena juga bayar RM25 untuk service charge. Aiyoo... Terpaksalah memandangkan warranty handpon tu pun dah expired.


          So pun meng-OK-kan jelah... sbab rushing nak main futsal kan. Takut lewat. Dah hantar and settle satu hal. Lepas tu pada hari Jumaat lepas, officer kat Nokia Centre tu call aku. Dia nak inform aku harga tuk repair handpon aku tu. Dia ckap untuk repair kena bayar RM387.00 sbab ia melibatkan module dia yg kena repair or tukar, maybe. Ntahlah. First, tu memang lah aku terkejut beruk. Apa tak nya, sbab masa hari Rabu tu dia ckap mungkin dalam RM60 hingga RM120 je. Tapi skali harga kluar, uishhh nak berdarah juga hidung nie. Haha.... Aku sempat juga terdiam masa tu, officer tu siap "Hello??? Hello???" kat aku lagi.... hahaha..... Aku tak banyak pikir sangat sbab memang aku sayang sangat kat Blacky Bear aku tu. So, aku suruh jelah buat JANJI, Blacky sihat mcm sediakala. Tapi yang penting aku kenalah tangguh lagi plan nak ambik lesen kot? hahaha...

Apapun, salam sayang dari..

Jerung Rimba Putih

Friday, March 26, 2010

EGO IS NOT A GUARANTEE

          Tetiber terbangun. Sejuk sangat. Jam menunjukkan pukul 3.45am. Means skrg hari Jumaat. Tak perasan pula yang aku tertido dengan kipas berputar pada kelajuan maksimum. So bila aku dah terbangun camtu jgn haraplah akan tertido balik. Trus bangun dan pegi cuci muka. Segar skit and buat nescafe pack panas. Buka FB kejap, baca blog2 org... baca skit2 banyak gak cite best2.

          Banyak benda bermain dipikiran aku masa nie. Terutama skali tentang si dia. Aku bukan marah ke apa tapi aku cuma kesal lah diperlakukan seperti itu. Aku sayang tahap gaban kat dia tapi dia bleh tak percayakan aku. Seriously aku nak ckap yang aku tidak pernah walau sedetikpun berfikir buruk tentang dia dan tak pernah sekali cuba melakukan sesuatu yg boleh buat dia berduka, tak senang hati, gusar, gundah gulana, sakit hati dan ataupun sakit kepala. Dan yg paling penting, sya tidak pernah mencuba untuk merampas kebahagiaan dia. Tidak pernah.

        Ini lah masalah yang biasanya timbul kalo kita tak percaya pada pasangan. Suka berahsia. Kan bagus kalo dia berterus terang, cerita sebijik2 dengan aku. Aku tau lah aku ni tak sehebat dia. Tak segagah dia. Tak sepopular dia. Tak seglamer dia. Tapi aku tau lah nak handle benda camna. Aku tau aku ni just SCANDAL aka KEKASIH GELAP kan? Betul ke? Aku tulis ni pun mesti dia marah tahap gaban. Tapi kalo aku tak tulis mesti dia akan sangka bukan2. Slalu pikir yg aku akan buat sesuatu yg aku lansung tak pernah terpikir pun nak buat. Kadang memang sedih lah jugak. Tapi aku tanak lah pasal benda2 remeh temeh camtu nak dijadikan isu. Actualy, aku tak kisah kalau kisah ni bergerak dengan berat sebelah. Maksud aku dimana aku kena slalu mengalah. Aku betul2 tak kisah kalo tu boleh buat dia bahagia tapi jgn lah suka berprasangka buruk ngan aku. Aku tau lah aku ni kaki jeles. Kita sama tapi aku tanak cakap dia tu lagi Kaki Jeles tahap gaban. Mesti dia marah. Tak kisah lah kalo dia tak peduli mengenai satu fakta yg aku juga punya hati dan perasaan. Dia kata dia ego. Tapi itu bukan masalahnya. Walaupun kadang aku jatuh dan rasa hina tapi itu tak menghalang aku tuk tampil lebih baik.

           Baru skrg aku rasa berguna jugak buku yg aku baca ni. Haritu ada sorang akak tu tertinggal buku ni kat tempat keje aku. So aku mcm betul2 tertarik nak baca. Aku pun copy lah buku ni kat kedai. Aku tak lah kata aku nie bagus sangat tapi kalo kita bleh apply benda yg kita baca tu dalam kehidupan seharian memang baik. Kita bleh bezakan antara patut atau tak patut. Antara perlu atau tak perlu. Antara mesti atau tak semestinya. Wajib ataupun tidak. Tak pun, antara ada hati atau tak... wah.... mesti dia tambah ngamok.... haip! Kena pikir positif ok.

          Aku sempat gak main keyboard. Jiwang2 jap subuh2 tadi. Pastu aku rasa yg hidup aku ni mcm fret keyboard tu. Tak semuanya putih... ada juga yg hitam. Tak semestinya hidup aku ni happy memanjang sebab mesti ada juga hari2 yg gelap dalam hati aku. Apatah lagi dia. Aku bukan cuba nak kaitkan dia dalam hal ni. Tapi aku nak dia tau yg aku tidak lah seburuk yg dia slalu sangkakan. MUNGKIN disetiap masa, gambaran aku difikiran dia slalu mengangu kehidupan dia. Untuk itu, aku memohon jutaan ampun dan maaf. Harap kehadiran aku yg tlah membawa sejuta masalah kedalam hidupmu itu dapat dimaafkan. Aku tak dilahirkan sempurna mcm dia. Sesungguhnya, bagiku dia sangat sempurna kerna tidak pernah sedikit pun hati ini sanggup mencerca dia. Tengok muka dia je mesti aku automatik tersenyum. Kena santau kot? wah.. abislah dia ngamok pasni. haha... Bagiku dia sangat2 sempurna. Tapi Tuhan itu MahaAdil lagi MahaBijaksana, dia takkan biar umatNya hidup dalam keadaan batin yg terluka buat selama2nya. Aku bukan Muslim tapi still percaya ngan Qada' dan Qadar. Nak cakap aku ni munafik? Terpulanglah, aku tak berhak nak adili diri sendiri melainkan org lain yg mengadili diri aku.

          Selepas beberapa lama aku simpan buku ni. Last2 aku kluarkan balik and start buat revision. Aritu dah plan nak ambik tapi sbab ada masalah besar so aku kena skip dulu. Rasanya aku dah lama tak bawa kereta dah hampir 2 tahun dah... Mesti dah terketar2 kalo bawa skrg nie.... Hahaha....

          Satu benda aku nak cakap.. kita boleh hidup berpandukan pengalaman tapi jgnlah jadikan masa lampau kita tu tuk samakan dengan org lain. Btul itu hak masing2 tapi sampai bila harus ada hati yg akan terluka? Aku boleh bagi jaminan 99.9% yang kita akan mengalami benda yg sama kalo kita tak cuba untuk ubah sikap kita. Maksud aku, jgn terbawak2 sangat ngan kisah lama. Kita kena lebih terbuka dalam berfikir dan jgn pentingkan diri sendiri tak kira lah berdasarkan pengalaman atau tak. Mcm bola jugak. Aku tak kisah kalo aku kalah ngan dia. Tapi bagi lah aku kalah 6 berbalas 1 je ke. Janganlah bagi aku kalah 20 berbalas kosong. hahaha.....

        Aku rasa dia tahu apa aku cuba maksudkan... Tak kisah lah dia nak anggap aku apa lepas nie. Sebab rasanya lebih baik aku menjadi diri sendiri dan tak perlu berpura2 untuk sedapkan mata org lain. Kerna aku akan sentiasa rasa bodoh bila melakukan itu. Aku adalah aku dan aku bukan lahir dari pemikiran org lain. Hina aku secukup2nya dan aku terima kerna aku tau aku tak sempurna mcm kamu. Yah, aku tak sempurna mcm kamu. Tapi kelansungan hidup harus diteruskan. Jalan hidup aku masih jauh dan masih banyak perlu aku lalui. Aku tak salahkan dia sbab berfikiran mcm tukat aku. Dia hidup berdasarkan pengalaman lama dia. Takpa, itu hak dia. Tak siapa bleh ganggu.

        Rasanya aku kena start jogging semula lah... dah lama tak joging selepas last event aku tu pada last2 post kat link nie. Mt. Kinabalu Race - Training dan Mt. Kinabalu Climbathon - After The Race. Tadi timbang berat, dah naik 2kg!!!! Ntah apa yg naik. Naik berat bijik tu kot? hahaha... Aku tak bersedia lagi nak naikkan berat badan sbab aku selesa ngan body kurus2 tough aku nie. wah..... perasan! Tak caya? Cuba bezakan pic aku ni.. Aku perasan bila tengok smula gambar2 nie... hu2..

Tengok kat bawah ni mcm org bunting duduk je aku rasa.... haha....


          Apa2pun Terima Kasih Cinta. Aku memang tak layak untukmu kerana kau terlalu sempurna untukku. Apapun, thanks for the memories. Yg pasti aku takkan pernah berhenti menyayangimu. Hugs.

Ikhlas, 
Jerung Rimba Putih

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I CANT SLEEP AS I FEELING GUILTY


1.16am - 24 March Thursday.

            Last nite, off for bed when I got a good news brought by the rain... Yes, you read it right, The RAIN. The tears of the heaven-so-call finally poured down to earth. Of course I'm happy with it. Coz its been like 2 month the world've become like Hell here in Sabah. Its so damn hot before. As hot as me, I guess. haha... Nah!!! I manage to get home early today as we got "green light" earlier today. Of corz I'm happy. So, I arrived home with a happy smiley face. As I can finish all my daily chorus and go for online. You know what is it mean. Yes!! I can go for chat for a long period today. Of course I'm happy. I go for online and yes, we've chat. But bad things suddenly appeared. Damn!!! Suddenly its black-out. Its 7.xxpm. So, I was like *&^%$#@ that time. So, I'm laying on my bed and go for some sms to my love one. Tried to make a joke. Yeah, its cute to see when your love one sulking isn't it? hehe... I was just joking around until I fell asleep... Put the blame to the rain. hahaha.... Suddenly I woke up at 11.1xpm. Gave a call to say sorry... Yes, I mean it.
           After the phone hang-off itself as the credit gone almost finished. This got nothing to do with the break-up stuffs okai...  Dunno but yes I've just finished read all the posts from the blog... . Uh hu! From my love one's blog and I read everything. And after read all that stories, I start to wonder.... "Is there really chances for me to feel the love?" I guess I should just try my best for this love. Of corz I dunno how far it will go but for sure I wont quit. I'm just trying my luck n best. Seriously I've found the love.  And I wont stop for it. YES, I WONT!

            But I just want to make this thing clear. I just want you to know that.. Your journey of your life stories are just an another great experience for you. Yes, for you to know what LOVE is untill you know you'll LOST it. Being good doesn't mean you have to be perfect. Please don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect. Its about how we UNDERSTADING each other and the feelings. Feel the heart. Taste the sweet n sour of this precious life. Being hurt before doesn't mean you have to make other persons feel the same as you do before. YES, I LOVE YOU. I typed it thru my sms, I said it the the fon. And I mean it. Yeah, its sure hurt sometimes when people say things you didnt do. But, for me I will take that as a challenge. As I've said before, I'M NOT PERFECT. And I'm really3 sorry for that. 

             There just so much things to say. But, I think this is enough for now. Whatever happens onward, I just hope that we can go through and solve all the problems. And for you to know, I never stop thinking about loving you and never start thinking about hurting you. My love is there no matter  how hard you've tried me with all your speeches. Just please stop judging me. Just please. YES, 143!

Hugs,
Jerung Rimba Putih
3.09am, 24 March 2010


Sunday, March 21, 2010

DOSAKAH AKU?


Dosakah aku mencintaimu
Mendampingimu
Menginginkanmu
Aku menjadi diri sendiri
Tak peduli apa kata dunia
Ku nanti hari ketika
Cinta datang cinta menang
Jadi sayangku bertahanlah
Bila terkadang mulutnya kejam
Peluklah aku
Jangan menyerah
Mereka bukan hakim kita
Bintang yang mempertemukan kita
Cinta yang mempertahankan kita
Tuhan dengarkan doa
Dari cinta yang terlarang
Rasa yang mempersatukan kita
Cinta yang mempertahankan kita
Tuhan dengarkan doa
Dari cinta yang terlarang
Cinta dan rasa
Bersatu di doa
Berharap cinta kita yang terlarang
Berharap cinta kita yang kan menang



Ikhlas,
Jerung Rimba Putih 

THANKS FOR THE HURT




Dulu aku kau puja
Dulu aku kau sayang
Dulu aku sang juara
Yang selalu engkau cinta
Kini roda telah berputar

Kini aku kau hina
Kini aku kau buang
Jauh dari hidupmu
Kini aku sengsara
Roda memang telah berputar

Mana janji manismu
Mencintaiku sampai mati
Kini engkau pun pergi
Saat ku terpuruk sendiri

Akulah sang mantan
Akulah sang mantan

Sakit teriris sepi
Ketika cinta telah pergi

Akulah sang mantan
Akulah sang mantan





Ikhlas,
Jerung Rimba Putih

Saturday, March 20, 2010

LYRICS....

:(







IS THIS THE END OF CHAPTER ONE?


Sakit. Aku rasa sangat sakit. Dan aku cuba untuk bangkit.
Mati. Aku rasa seperti mati. Walaupun aku tahu aku tak mau mati.
Pedih. Hati ini rasa pedih. Benar-benar buat aku sedih.
Takdir. Beginikah takdir? Iaitu saat yang kau tak mungkin hadir.

Kau datang dengan indah tapi kau pergi tanpaku pinta.
Kau buat aku gembira tapi kau tinggalkan aku berduka,
Kau ukir senyuman bahagia tapi kau gores hati ku luka,
Kau buatku terbuai leka tapi kau biar aku merana.

"Dimanakah harusku cari.
Pengganti dirimu bila hati telah terpatri,
Seribu jarak telah ku tempuh,
Agar kau slalu bersamaku"


Bagimu benar katanya,
Bagimu jahat diriku,
Bagimu kesian dirinya,
Tapi bagimu aku tak guna. 
Aku tau....

"Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cintaku padamu
Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud"

Baginya,
Kataku bersulam bisa,
Walhal aku menurut sahaja,
Katanya tetap aku tak lupa,
Dengan harapan itu buatnya bahagia.

Kita yakin akan wujudnya cinta,
Biarlah kita tempuhinya bersama,
Kalau kau tahu bahagia ada disana,
Kenapa tanya watak ketiga???

Bukan sengaja buatmu bengang,
Meski kau kata nak bagi pelempang,
Walau slalu berfikir aku ni pencurang,
Aku diam sebabku dah sayang.

Sudah menjadi lumrah dunia,
Hidup ini tak boleh dipaksa,
Kadang bahagia kadang berduka,
Yang penting hati gembira.

Saat ini hatiku runsing,
Seharian aku merenggek cengeng,
Kawinkanlah anjing dengan kucing,
Kawinnya jadi tapi tak seiring.

Si suami marah si isteri diam,
Terlalu diam dikatanya memendam,
Sentap tapi bukan makan dalam,
Saja bagi suasana tenteram.


Dengan ini, aku menyusun 10 jari tuk minta maaf dan minta ampun secara ikhlasnya.
Memang kadang kita silap, tapi disetiap sudut itu mesti ada jalan penyelesaiannya.
Aku sedar aku manusia biasa dan terlalu hina di depannya buat masa ini.
Tapi harap Tuhan bagi petunjuk kepadaku akan dimana bermulanya dan wujudnya masalah ini.
Dan untuk masa2 yag pernah ada, aku sangat merasa bahagia.
Tak sedetikpun aku lupa akan saat2 itu.
Walaupun kini aku harus menampung sejuta tahun kesakitan.
Harap lobang dihati ini akan kembali pulih.

Sesungguhnya aku lemah mengharungi hari2 ini tanpanya.
Jangan lah uji aku sehebat ini.
Aku tanak jadi kambing hitam lagi lepas nie.
Asyik nak jaga hati orang lan tpi aku sendiri yang terkorban.
Cukuplah satu lubang yg buat di hati ini.
Sejujurnya, aku lebih rela jadi gila daripada menahan sakit hati.
Salam Sayang,
Jerung Rimba Putih

Sunday, March 7, 2010

I'M GETTING MARRY!!!


Every time we talk about married, it'll always sound very nice. 
The wedding gown! 
The tuxedo!
The rings!
The kisses!
The roses! 
Nervous!
Smiling faces!
Can't really stop thinkin' bout the day.

I guess that getting marry is the most unforgettable, happiest and precious moments of every couple's life. 
So, its mean that they will be happy together no matter what.. 
That is a happy ending.

But getting marry is not always sounds good,
It's a disaster sometimes,
It all happened with a single buzz at YM,
A chat with my close bro,
3am in the morning,
Dawn in the morning!
(All these expressions is what according to them)

He is really3 in love with his couple.
All these days before goin' just well.
Full with happiness,
The laughter,
The smile of the loved one,
They shared all the feelings,
And all is perfect to them,
Until one day..

His couple suddenly being marry-off to another person,
Family choice,
Its like a thunder to them,
Speechless and hopeless,
Sad and sorrow,
Grieve!
They never thought that this will happened,
So, this weekend is their last day,
The last for all the feeling,
The last day for what they've started,
The last day for the warm hugs,
And sure the last goodbye.

They've do whatever the can,
But they just don't want to make it worst,
They really love each other,
And know what best for them.

With that, they bought a twin couples ring,
A Sapphire,
With a hope that they will always remember each other,
And always love each other,
No matter what!

And he ended the conversation for a sleep.
Even I can feel the pain,
So, what's a PAIN to them???
And I'm left speechless!
Is that what love is???
We learned something new everyday,
And we'll keep getting better,
Memories remain in their heart!
So be happy for all the memories!



Just sharing the toughest days of my bro. Be strong!

Much love,
Jerung Rimba Putih.


Saturday, March 6, 2010

LIFE OR DEATH for $$$?


               Everything happened as always. Woke up late. But not TOO late I mean.
Sleepy at work. Tertido masa baca buku(Profesional Ethics) masa dalam bas. Ntah sapa baca sapa nie.... Dun have much for breakfast as I dun really like to eat much. Heh! Got a call from MrShinyHead but not from Mr3Z. Busy kot. Aiyoo... Thanks tho for the call tho...  Really appreciate it man.

               So its afternoon already, suddenly an old lookin' guy came to me and asked something like...
"Ko kah JR?" and Yes I replied. 
 
              So he started to offer an underground-kinda-job to me. And the job is really into my expertice! Then he asked how much my salary here(work place now). Told him all the details. Yes, I'm the lurus kayu kinda person sometimes. No use cheating eh?


              Finally, in the middle of our bla3ing he then offered me with lots of $$$ if I work for him. First, the inner of me was like, WOW, $$$ erk? haha... But my uncle's advise suddenly came across in my mind. My Uncle is a police officer. And they usually call it(job) CID. So, I dun think that I wanna go for that job. 

              I refused and took my step by walking away from that guy with a big smile. Dunno why but I just feel that I'm finally free from something.. But not dunno free from what... Its just the smile came itself....

And my day happened as usual.. 
Busy most of the time.... 
Just wanna share the story tho...

Note : Sorry for the late update. Busy with job and sleepy most of the time. (n_n)y
FYI : This is a late reply and post. Still a good story to share tho..


Much love,
Jerung Rimba Putih

Monday, March 1, 2010

NUMB & EMPTY


               

                Woke up early today. Its like 4am to 4.30am. And its still dawn for sure! Numb and empty. I cant think of anything. Try to jump again for the bed but it didn't work as I planned. The eyes don't wanna  shut! Then I just sit and leaning at the corner of my bed. Stay for a while and staring at the fan on the ceiling. Stupid! Yes, I feel very stupid! Then I end this numb-kinda feeling to feed my stomach as its already muttering. And I'm off to the kitchen. Open the fridge and take all the things that I want. Things happened! And I'm done negotiating. 2 plates is enough already.

               I go for a bath. Things done! And go up for online. Yes, the line is very damn faster. Done with couple of things. And jump back again for bed and this time the eyes finally shut! I woke up late for a 5.5km jog as I do daily. Damn it! Thanks God, MrShinyHead called for me that time. Big smile for me coz he did save me today! Haha...

                So, I pack-up all the stuffs and get ready for work. I ended up things with staring out of the bus numbly! Dunno why. Think wanna make a call to MrShinyHead and Mr3Z but shit happened! Both of the fons is still laying on the bed. Great! Just great! So I do things as always, feel bored as always. Go for online a bit as my work are lots to be done! Damn! I wish I can just stay at home without working! Or stay at our house at the kampung. Its been so many years already I don't go to see that house. 6 years I guess. Aiyoo....

               So, here I'm now. Arrived home with a heavy-shoulder. Walking like a grandpa. Exhausted. And yeah, I didn't even manage to get my breakfast and lunch just now. And even my tea break. I walk home with an empty stomach. 

               Dunno what happened but the fons are full with missed call and messages. MrShinyHead with that cute-sad kinda smiley?? Heh! Whats that all about? No one pickup the fon eh?? Sorry tho...

               Think I should take a bath and get ready for my cook-marathon. Haha... 
Off for bath now and hope things are all fine there. okai...

SORRY AGAIN FOR ALL THE TROUBLES THAT HAPPENED BECAUSE OF ME!
SO SORRY ABOUT IT!


Much Love,
Jerung Rimba Putih


              

TAKE A BOW!!!

               A big sorry for those who I've done badly this lately. Sometimes I think that I just wanna make u guys feel better but I dont really know what on your mind.. So, how can I predict? Shud I keep on tracking like a stalker? I just wanna know! But when you guys keep quiet and dont even say nothing or anything it makes me think that you're not that "OK"!! As I really like and happy to know you guys. 

                Plus, you come up with a new FB post shows ur sadness?? Shud I keep my mouth shut while I think dat I can make you feels happy? But at least I still try. So, I just give my best to make you feel happy.

               I'm sincere on doin' this man but when dat make you feel bad, hurt or uncomfortable then I'm sorry about that. And I promise you guys that there'll be no more disturbances that you will get from me later... That's my promise!
There's no meaning to get your attentions or else.
Think I better stay with my business, things and craps.
Think I quit with getting into peoples’ life.
Think I shud take care about my life.
Thanks tho for the good time...
And again, sorry for all the bad.



Millions sorry,
Jerung Rimba Putih