LIFE JOURNAL #19 : LOST

 
 
Its Saturday. So theres no reason for me to wake up early Driving lesson? Nope! Not until 23rd Nov. But still, terbangun awal pagi bebenor tadi. Heh!! Go to the kitchen n make some nescafe n kuar kat kaki lima. The day still dark to see and its cold out there. Then go back to my room. Sit beside the bed for a couples of hours. Listening to my fav jiwang2 music sebelum matahari naik.

MENGELAMUN!!!

After dat, continue doin' my weekend chores. Basuh pakaian, then sidai.  Cuci kasut! Jog? MALAS!!! Got couples of sms. Yes, of coz imma happy. Thanks for makin' me smiles early dis morning. Aftenun? Dun really doing anything pun other then enjoy playing computer game. Resident Evil 5. Abg bising2 kata jgn layan komputer saja. Yelah boring2, nak jugak pam darah kasi high the adrenalin level. Suspen ada, sakit hati pun ada sbab balik2 mati. But I'm enjoy most of the time. Yelah dari asyik pikir pasal hal2 yg tak best. Baik takyah.  

Sometimes its better for u 2 run then to hide. U ran n they maybe cannot catch u. Dun care lah apa sebab. But if u hide, they wont see you, but how long u gonna stay like dat?  If they dont move? Then u just gonna stay there lah forever??? So I made my decision. Whatever best for them, I will let they enjoy thier life.  Its not mine tho so its up to you then. I never stop wishing for other peoples' happiness.  I never wish something bad for them. 

Same like me, I would rather enjoy being me than skit2 nak sakit hati bagai..  Tau lah panas baran kan.  So I gotta be cool for some reason. Its not like I dun care pun, but still I dun want to do anything dat make other people think dat I'M DISTURBING. coz dats ANNOYING. Sure lah tak pasal aku ngamok bila dengar camtu. Yes. I cannot blame anyone pun if dat happen. I shud think much, I mean I must to think much before sayin' something. 
arghhh.... 4get about dat..

Any last words??

Yeah, I think I shud leaving soon and change something in me. Change for better-ness. Kearah kemantapan camtu. Away from Sabah maybe. Dunno lah. I know dat someday I gotta do this.  But now I think I'm..........

LOST!

  

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #18 : ITS TIME TO SAY GOODBYE

 Arghhh.... 

Problem never stop hunting me. 

After my beloved phone was swapped with dat PSP2006.

I had a couples short of time enjoying the gadget. 

And after dat, problem occured.

I'm so miss my E71. 

Damn, how I wish I didn't swap it before.

The dual-shock is broken. Damn! Feel like wanna smash it.

 

 Then this is my E71. Miss it very much. :(

 

 And this is my fon now. Been take care of it 99.9% well.

But I guess its time has come oso . The speaker cannot serve me any sound. 

Damn hate dat!!! When theres a calling in..

I cannot hear them sayin' anything 

Must be the speaker ordy broken or something. Guess so..

Its was like in hell when the boss callin'-in and cannot hear he say anything.

Plus the screen injury.

And I wish to change my fon. And I really love this one.

NOKIA N97 MINI.

Easy for me to update my blog.

 This Nokia N97 Mini looks tasty.

 MISS MY BLACKLY BEAR(E71)!!!

And guess what?? this SHOP sell it cheap.
but its 2ndhand lah.
I dun mind!!! hahahaha....
**texting the shop

Much Love,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #17 : SOMEDAY MAYBE

I dunno wat happened this lately. 

The heart is here but its not REALLY here.

Things I've struggle lately is a lil' bit clumsy.

I suppose to follow the routine everyday but then..

IT NEVER REALLY WORKS. 

I did do couples of jogs, futsal, soccer n metal-lifting.

Lazy is always in the air. Really need a good attitude on this.

Maybe its bcoz of me, missing people around.

They're keep busy with their job. 

Shud not busy about dat n let them do with their thang.

The routine was well scheduled but y I still missed the time.

Punctual. Maybe that what I need. Nah.. forget about dat one.

The jiwang2 aura is in the room now. I mean everyday oso. 

I know its a bit emo. Damn I dun care.

With dat,  just wanna wish you all the best.

May God Bless You Guys Always.

Amen. 

Gone thru this day with a tough QnA.

Skipped my job again today coz head is about to blow just now.

Aiyoo~~~ Monteng2 keje sajork.

Much love,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #16 : QUESTIONING HEART

I wish i can start all my day with a big happy smile.

This morning i woke up a bit late. Headache! 

But still I have 2 go 2 work. 

Lewat sampai kedai. Tertido dalam bas bagai..

Yes, I'm sleepy with my head waiting its time to erupt.

Damn I need much time for sleep.

I started things with an arms wide open. 

I welcome every friends, every enemies and every person who have big heart for peace.

I dun really care who they're n what they've gone thru before...

As for me, the past is past and today's gonna be a great to start.

Everyday is a great day for everyone.

So stop spoil ur day for such a simple n stupid thang.

Just be thankful coz you've tested by Him.

And things I struggle so much seem not going to be happen.

Yeah, I struggle a lot in life but this one is still-under-progress lagi kot..

hahahaa.....
I dunno, if it good for me to not-to,
then I wont take any move for that..

I dun expect for it to be perfect. I just want it to end in a good way.

Where I can see my face smiling widely around. 

and my happy heart blooming in love n spread the happiness inside.

If I'm happy n I wish everyone will do the same.

Good luck for the audi!

Good luck for every single things u do.

Good luck

Good luck

And Good luck!!

MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL ALWAYS.

I'll never say goodbye coz I got you all.

Thanks for the bonds.

Missing people around,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #15 : LIFE'S LIKE THIS

 1230am. So its Tuesday now.

Monday is always be a boring day to start with.

Read some blog and I found this. 

ASH - Life's Like This

A simple guides to choose whether u wanna be a perfect or a loser kind of person.

Thanks Ash for the guides!

I read often and think a lot. I like the way I'm living right now.

I dun really need something dat can make me satisfied. 

But I just want to be happy the way it suppose to be.

Yes, I can be ego sometimes. Most of the time I guess.

I'll said i'm happy eventho I'm not. 

But if that makes other person happy so let it be that way.

I've made my decision. But now its a bit berbelah hati. 

I dunno if I shud proceed with it but yeah.. if I dun .. when??

I heard stories. And it broke my heart into pieces.

I wish to smash things around me. I have my punching bag.

But its late nite ordy. So, let the anger stay inside.

But that doesnt stop me. I'll find every single pieces dat missing. 

And get my heart back! Let the sad story become memories.

The color that shines my life now n forever.

January is almost around and I guess its a time for a changes!

nite!

JRP QUOTE, :

"Banyakkan mendengar, kurangkan menjawab"

Much Love,

JRP aka. JR

MEMORIES #2 : JOANNA AMBER'S 1ST YEAR BEFDAY

I dunno but maybe I'm too busy. And this little princess getting bigger n bigger so fast.
Haha.. masa cepat berlalu kan! So there she is, celebrate her 1st yer befday.
Belated befday  I mean. Thank God I'm happy to have this little chumel.

I guess everyone here oso feel the same as me. There's a couples of pics below.

Low quality of pics coz I'm using hpon. The batteries is out of charge. 

So, cannot use camera. Well, just scroll down please! 

:)

What might she wish if she know how to do it?

No light at the candle?

Shaking hand n sayin', "Thanks aunt for the presents"

She's busy exploring. Korek2!!

Pipi bengkak sangat kan! hahaha....

 

ermmm.... sedapnyer kek~~~

The happy little princess after the party....
She looks very happy during dat day.

 Yes. Gumbira x terkata dia.. gelak trus satu malam.

the Diva pose??? aiyoo...

"Oh yes, I am beau-tea-fool hookay. Jeles huh??"

and the latest one. hehe...

I feel so thanks to have this little cutie pie.

Some of this heart is for her. 

To see her cry is like to hate myself for losing something.

I'll struggle to make her happy. 

May she grow up well n less crying time.

Be strong chumel coz you are one.

Much Love,

JRP aka. JR

A WORDS TO REMEMBER #4 : LUBANG DI HATI

Ku buka mata dan ku lihat dunia

T'lah ku terima anugerah dunia

Tak pernah aku menyesali yang ku punya

Tapi ku sadari ada lubang dalam hati

Ku cari sesuatu yang mampu mengisi lubang ini

Ku menanti jawaban apa yang dikatakan oleh hati

Apakah itu kamu apakah itu dia

Selama ini ku cari tanpa henti

Apakah itu cinta apakah itu cita

Yang mampu melengkapi lubang didalam hati

Ku mengira hanya dialah obatnya

Tapi ku sadari bukan itu yang kucari

Ku teruskan perjalanan panjang yang begitu melelahkan

Dan ku yakin kau tak ingin aku berhenti

Apakah itu kamu apakah itu dia

Selama ini ku cari tanpa henti

Apakah itu cinta apakah itu cita

Yang akan mengisi lubang dalam hati

The Dyin' Star Gazer,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #14 : SILENT WILL CURE

I dont feel like I'm ok this lately. I need a quality time for myself.

Some peoples dat I knows seem so busy. Of coz they are.

But yeah, I miss em so much. 

But I wont tell them dat coz if they do the same as I do

They'll never forget u. I guess I shud not talk further about this. 

Forget it. Other stories?

Job well done but with a super n a high level of stress-ness around last week coz its Monday ordy now. haha..

Manage to finish em' all AFTER 10pm at night. Damn it.

FCUK i need to find new job.

Going or moving out somewhere else maybe

I guess my time to live alone again shud start before next years.

I'm looking forward to move to KL.

Eventho' parents seem not agree with me..

But if I dont who's gonna do dat? Seriously, I dunno.

I can make a decisions but will I make a right one?

arghhh.. enough with all this thang! 

Saturday midnite. As I lay on the bed, then the You Raised Me Up song is on the air.

Its awful to say that my tears run down my face.

Damn I feel guilty dat time. But after dat I feel so thankful.

Thanks to my mum for raising me up until now.

Without her, I cannot stand this big. Thanks mum.

And this is my 2nd time of being crybaby after Nsi.

And that is after 8 years!! Feel so grateful and thankful.

Coz there's still person around me dat willing to share their love.

Make other happy. Always around n willing to listen to our stories.

Then Sunday is a lazy day. Skipped the prayer. aiyoo.. 

My tutor suddenly called and woke me up for the date. A driving lesson date.

Finish with the driving lesson in a hot day. And directly heading home.

Home. Blackout. Hot day and sweaty.

Damn I slept most of the time and woke up after Joanna Amber is around.

Slapping at my face. Damn. haha...  I knew my sister let Joanna do that.
%!^&@*@)@$#!!!
Go for online until now.

Nah, just surfing for vacancies.
Damn I missed dat steward aka. crew cabin post at MasWings on dat last Saturday.

Damn it. I think the interview will be on 30th September.
How can I miss dat one? FCUK!!

Enough talk. I'm so tired n need to rest coz tough day is around 4 hours ahead starting now.

Good day ahead tho to all.

DAMN I MISS MY BROS... 

WHERE MIGHT THEY BE??

kekwat-ing? :(

Dyin' Star Gazer,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #13 : TWISTED BRAIN

Ok this time seem like a little bit rushin' coz

I'M TOO FCUKING TIRED!!

AND SLEEPY.

I NEED MUCH TIME FOR REST!

There's so many thing dat keep on buzzing my head now.

1st : I just missing peoples around me.

I miss them so damn much.

But I rather keep my mouth shut.
I never miss their blogpost - even once.
I've read em' all. And I know every single stories.
Every single lines. Every single words.
JR tau camna sedih, suka dan duka korang.

2nd : Tak tau lah tapi kan, 

I am so fcuking tired and sleepy this week.

Yes, ure right. Thats not ME kan? Yes. I admit it.
Well, I guess I owe everyone an apologize..
I AM SO SO SORRY!
I owez slept early eventho there a lots of job I still didnt finish yet.
Banyak kerja JR yg tertangguh2. 
Memang saja cari nahas tanak siapkan..
Bos marah2.. aku buat de je...
Dunno lah.. mcm aku nak saja berenti keje...
Nak sangat2...

3rd : Rasa sangat2 malas nak pegang handpon skrg.

Mana sibuk and stress nak buat keje.
Handpon dari pagi gi keje simpan dalam beg saja. 
Ntah lah.. bukan nak kata bosan ke apa tapi just nak cari masa tuk diri sendiri saja..
Its fine for you

I NEED MY TIME TO FIND MYSELF. 

THATS ALL.

Tapi JR bersenang hati lah juga kalo korang faham.

Btw, I miss peoples so damn much.

I hope they know that.

And hoping a good day for them everyday.

:(

Dyin' Star Gazer,

JRP aka. JR

MEMORIES #1 : WE'LL BE A DREAM

Do you remember the nights we, Stayed up just laughing.
Smiling for hours at anything, Remember the nights we
drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out, We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world, Likes its all we have

To hold onto and we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights we, Made our way dreaming
Hoping of being someone big,We were so young then, 
We were to crazy in love

When the lights go out, We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world, 
Likes its all we have to hold on to
An we'll be a dream

(whoaaa ooooooooh)

When the lights out (When the lights go out)
We'll be safe and sound. (We'll be safe and sound)
Well take control of the world
Like its all we have to hold on to
And we'll be (And we'll be)

And when the light go out. (and when the light go out)
We'll be safe and sound, We'll take control of the world
Like its all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

The Dreamin',

JRP aka. JR 

A WORDS TO REMEMBER #3 : AS A CAPRICORN

CAPRICORN
The Passionate Lover (December 22 to January 20)
Love to bust. Nice. Intelligent. Sexy. Sassy.

Grouchy at times and annoying to some. 

Lazy and love to take it easy.

But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. 

Proud, understanding and sweet. Irresistible. 

Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. 

Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. 

Loves to win against other signs in sports, especially Gemini's. 

Likes to cook but would rather go out
To eat at good restaurants. Extremely fun. 

Loves to joke. 

Whatever thang it may said, 
Its up to you.
You're the one who create the attitutes.
Just be happy even the sky turned grey.

Much n more love,

JRP aka. JR

A WORDS TO REMEMBER #2 : AKU DAN AIR MATA

Jatuh air mataku
Iringi remuk redam hatiku
Saat ku kehilanganmu
Dan hanya rintik hujan yang menemani aku

 Di saat aku bertahan
Selama ini aku bertahan
Lewati semua dalam dinginnya
Aku pandangi hanyalah langkahmu

Wahai kau air mataku
Hanya engkaulah tepi hidupku
Saat aku kehilangannya,
Saat aku kehilangannya

Tak bisa aku bertahan
Selama ini aku bertahan
Lewati semua dalam dinginnya
Aku pandangi hanyalah langkahmu

Jatuhnya pun masih di pangkuanku
Tak perlu kau berpaling

Wahai kau air mataku
Wahai kau air mataku

Di setiap detak jantungku
Hanya engkau yang menemaniku
Saat aku kehilangannya
Saat aku kehilangannya

Wahai engkau air mataku
Hanya engkaulah tepi hidupku

Saat aku kehilangannya
Saat aku kehilangannya
Jatuh air mataku

Iringi remuk redam hatiku

 

Download this song HERE. 

  Enjoy the song.

Much love,

JRP aka. JR

A WORDS TO REMEMBER #1 : THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE

The story
Of your life is so twisted
'Cause someone out there is missing
Everything you do

You're wasted
Nothing ever really makes sense
If you keep searching you'll find me
Hidden inside you

Leave behind your troubled eyes
See brand new what I can do
Just say yes if you really want me to

We can stay like this or go, go, go
We can take it too fast or take it slow
We can spend our lives ocean-side
Or count the stars in the desert
On a magic night
You can lie awake in bed
Or come and sleep with me instead
If you give me one chance to take your hand
I'll fill the empty pages as you write
The story of your life

The story
Of your life is unwritten
So put me down as your ticket
Don't even fight it

You're shaking
You're not sure of the ending
But let me be the beginning
Just put it in writing

This is now, no I don't mean maybe
Just wanna scream and call you baby now
Take a chance and call me crazy
Smile kid, there's only one way out

Fill the empty pages
Fill the empty pages

LIFE JOURNAL #12 : THE ACCEPTANCE

It's feel really good to be back to the track again

After a couple of months I didnt work out

Then now its like.. arghh malasnya!!!

But I made my choice

And I've started for the last 1 weeks

I start to become an athlete again

The competition is just around the corner

A month an a half is not enough for me to training

BUT, I'll always do the best.

Eventho its kinda lazy for me

Yes, very2 da lazy

And still I have to do it

Who dont want a super combo 'winning' in life?

1st, Live the healthy way of life

2nd, you can get a tough yummy body.

3rd, you may win the race

If not, u still not a loser. hahaha...

4th, Less time to be wasting with the video games that makes me skinny.

Yeah, I lose 2kg for the past fasting month. 

And dats is so not ok.

And its about acceptance.

Live the way you want it and be happy for it.

And it all started with a +ve thinking.

So, just go out have fun sometimes.

:)

Todays JRP Quote is : -

"Try to live with life"

Much love,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #11 : YOU'LL BE FINE.

There's a time in our life where we need nobody and just wanna be alone.

I admit that. It always happens to me. haha...

That's the time where you might ask yourself something like..

"Why am I like this?"

"Why does it happens to me?"

"Why am I born to this world and feel this pain?"

"Why they dont like me?"

And etc etc...

I used to think like that before and I didnt realise that I always have a great life.

Every single minutes in my life is very precious.

I have peoples I love around me.

By the time I feel sad, they'll be always there for me.

When I smiled, they will smile with me.

When I'm down, they will try thier best to lift me up and back to normal again.

They always cheer me up.

And they never fail me.

If you think dat you need time to be alone.

Think again, what might they think if you're sad,

 but they cant do anything to calm you down?

Will you drag them into your endless sorrow kind of thinking?

Seriously.

Every peoples have thier own ego. I can guaranteed dat.

But never ever let it blind your heart.

You got lots of heart around waiting for your smile.

Your smile could make them happy.

For whatever life bring you with every kind of obstacles.

Take it and face it with your smiling heart.

You'll never be there alone.

Share it and if they cannot help, they still reducing you pain.

Coz, they can cheer you up. Keep you away from sadness.

Try to take a risk sometimes. Its better then you do nothing.

~~~  JRP Quotes  ~~~

"TAKE A DEEP BREATH,

AND FREE YOURSELF FROM ANY MESS"

Make your move now.

:)

Much love,

Jrp aka. JR