LIFE JOURNAL #28 : 24TH MT. KINABALU CLIMBATHON - DAY 1

So, here's the day, 23 October 2010!!!! It's been a long time I've been waiting for this date to come and say Hi to me... Nervous, but I'm still exuberantly happy and cannot wait for the time to start the run. So, let see what we have here.

 We manage to reach there around 9.4xam in the morning and the runners are on their way heading to the summit odry..  Running in a chill n cold raining day??? 

  

 This is how the morning day looks like. Its tuuuut cold!!

 How cold is that if you can guess??? Damn cold enuff!!!

Cold enuff to kecutkan "something"!!

muahahahahaa.....

  Reminder! Reminder! Reminder!

Bukan sekadar hiasan. 

  Sawan!!! Sawan unta? Sawan ikan emas? Sawan kambing bunting?

Muahahaha.....

 The pathway heading to the main location..

 "Benggong Ahead". Heh!! 

Bonggol di hadapan. haha..

BUKAN!!! Bonggol kata bawah tu lah!!! 

 Ni lah hostel tempat JR stay last year...

Tapi tahun ni agak hampeh skit...(Tido dalam surau!!!)

**pek2 (hentak pale kat dinding)

 Grace Hostel dalam kenangan.. 

Tilam yg empuk. Ohhh... indahnya saat itu.. 

**dush2

 Nice bed they have in there. 

Kat bilik ni lah JR tido ngan lenanya hingga keesokkan hari...

Tengahari!!! Kabus masih kelihatan. Yg kecut tetap kecut!!

wakakakakaka.....

 Even theres no mist, the chill still making me headache.

Cuaca di lain skit.. dia lembab2 tapi panas terik.. 

Dapat imagine tak??

 

 Antara view2 yg sempat diambil...

 

Another nice view. Mount Kinabalu behind the mist.

 Suasana petang tu dari dalam bilik surau... 

Dengan aku sangat2 keseorangan masa tu... 

Smua sms dihantar tak berbalas... 

Sib baik ada sorang yg balas so tak lah feeling down sangat...

Sangat2 emo.. hahahaha...

 Embun kah? Kabus kah? Hujan kah? 

Apa?? REMBES kah????

**lucah!!!

 Petang tu barulah muncul si Gunung Kinabalu itew...

Minta puji kan!!!

 Layan keindahan alam sekitar... 

**gigil-ing

Tak paham lah apa yg dia jiwang2 sangat sampai campak2 beg plak mamat sorang nie...

wakakakaka...

So thats all for this post.

to be continued.. 

Much love, 

Jrp aka. Jr

LIFE JOURNAL #27 : THE PRAYER

 

Dear GOD,

        So, here I am once again. 

Wishing n begging for Your mercy. 

Please help me on this. 

Help me not to WIN. 

But I wish not to FAIL. 

Gimme strength and courage.
So that I can be happy with what I'm doing. 

Here.

This time.

This moment.

Right here.

Right now.

Amen.

Humble for God,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #26 : 24th MOUNT KINABALU INTERNATIONAL CLIMBATHON

So, here's the time again. For my 3rd times in a straight years. There so many things I wish to share here. About how I feel toward this thang. This event. 

Arghhh... But I guess its ok for me only to know bout it...

For those who never stop wishing n gimme support.

Thanks you guys.

I really appreciate it.

 So, that's the highest peak I wish to conquer for this competition.. 

Man, I wish I can. **brrrrr...

Do you really see what I see? 

If there's a will, never hesitate and just go for it.

Have a brave heart.

I saw this guy every year. Seriously.

Fog. 

How cold would it be?

Wish me all the best. 

Chayo2!!! 

Nervous-ing,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #25 : NERVEOUS WEEK???

 Yesterday. Its kinda lazy for me to do the daily routine. Wake up early(awal lah sangat) and get ready for work. Slept in the bus. And then arrived late to the office n get myself ready to takeover the shop. So, my mission for today is to finish my job coz there's still some business card for me to design, print out n cut it into pieces... argh... Actuly I can manage to finish it earlier but then one of the customer is like tuuuuuuut punya cerewet n bengap n bengong n tubal n palui n talingung n budus n so on.... wanna change this and dat... Arghhh!!! geram tau tak!!! nak tau lebih lanjut, pegi baca sendiri kat sini. budak bengong

Enuff wif dat crapppp!!! Then yesterday oso I manage to finished all my task. So, I'm leaving the building then go survey for a running shoes (again). Yeah. Its NIKE. Number 1 choice. Smua dah try, smua jenis kasut. Tapi hati tak melekat lah... Dunno but yeah, I just keep remembering my beloved Nike shoes at home. Planning nak beli baru tuk larian climbathon nanti.. tapi bila try je kasut tu smua hati nak tanak saja... kenapa bah... dalam hati plan nak beli kasut baru tuk futsal, so yg nie bleh guna tuk latihan saja or joging2 ka or juggling2 kat umah ka... tapi ntah lah... tetap jugak hati tertinggal kat umah... Yer lah, bayangkan, 2 times climbathon, kasut yg sama. Its Nike. Then 2 times tawan Mt K. Its Nike oso but the other shoes yg agak parah skit lah... mcm nie jugak tapi tak sebijik lah... silver color... takpa, mai den nak habaq kat bagi hang lawat kasut den nie... mai mai...

Rasa mcm tak sampai hati nak gantikan dia ngan yg baru sbab malam tu JR sempat jahit lagik..Tengok jahitan 5 stars tu... Ketat dia jgn tanya lah, sama kuat ngan kerbau ditarik hidung. Hidung??? heh!!! sensitif tuuuu... muahahhaha....

Front view. Tak banyak sangat pun scratch. Tapi memang tak menggangu apa2 pun coz its just a minor scratches bah... 

So this is the jahitan 5 stars itew... Kalo bleh jahit, jahit. Murah dan jimat. Bleh save RM200.... Memang dah save ponn... muahahahaha....

 Yg nie belah kiri. Nampak mcm parah tapi takda lah parah sangat pun... takkan beri effect apa2 punya.. sure!!!

And this is the minor scratch. eleh.. dia nie just nak manja2 je ni bagi tunjuk luka dia kat JR nie... muahahaha....

And for what i'm feeling right now, I just hope that everything will be just fine. Nervous? Jgn ckap lah, tahap gaban beb. Dah lah latihan x cukup pastu semput2 masa main futsal.. ni plak nak tawan Gunung Kinabalu. Berlari plak tu.. hadoyaiii.... matelewwww.... **dush2

Tapi takpa, baik cuba dari mengalah sebelum mencuba kan? Untuk event ni saja JR dah banyak berfikir dan menerima hakikat2 yg sedih jugak lah... yelah, planning nak gi KL makan angin kan... Tiket dah beli. 20th until 25th. Tapi date dah clash ngan event nie.. so for those yg terlibat, JR minta ampun dan maaf. JR cuba lain hari yer...

And I guess dats all for this post. So, have a day n enjoy your weekends yer... yg kena keje tu... apa lagi? siapkanlah keje tu...  MUAHAHAHAHAA....

Oklah, luv u all... hugs!

Yg bengong,

JRP aka. JR

MEMORIES #4 : JANGAN ADA DUSTA

Which one do you prefer the best?

 

Jangan Ada Dusta

Ketika pertama kujumpa denganmu
Bukankah pernah kutanyakan padamu kasih
Takkan kecewakah kau pada diriku
Takkan menyesalkah kau hidup denganku kasih

Memang kau bukan yang pertama bagiku
Pernah satu hati mengisi hidupku dulu
Dan kini semua kau katakan padaku
Jangan ada dusta di antara kita kasih

Semua terserah padamu aku begini adanya
Kuhormati keputusanmu, apapun yang akan
Kau katakan, sebelum terlanjur kita jauh
Melangkah, kau katakan saja

Tak kira lah baru kah lama kah... 

I still like Broery Marantika.

But then the new version is kinda steal my attention...

yeah, emosi tu sampai kat hati nie.. **heh!!!

Lirik? ermm.. how shud I say ermmm...

I prefer with the artist comment lah..

"NO KOMEN"

Muahahahaa...

So, thats all for Memories chapter for this post...

Have a great life.

Smile please!

 Much Love n Hugs,

Jrp aka. JR

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EXPRESSION #1 : WHADDA TUUUUUTT!!!

Perasaan malas nak update blog kian memuncak walaupun dalam kepala hotak nie nak cite smua rasa yang terpendam. Segala tuuuut, toooot dan teeeet yg aku rasa. But I guess I shudnt do dat pun. I just want to show the real ME in this blog. But then,... ntah lah, harini aku skema skit. I just follow the orders. Yeah. I slept early as ordered then of coz aku akan terbangun awal... Thats y lah aku tanak tido awal. Arghh.. nvm about it. 

Keje? Its ok lah. The pressure level oso not so high yesterday but still lah ada juga yg mcm nak kena bagi penampar pakai sandal punya lagak. Dah biasa pun. Tapi tetap juga menyakitkan hati bagi org baran mcm aku. Hidup jadi budak grafik kena banyak pasang telinga dengar keinginan customer walaupun mulut diorang kadang mcm longkang. Muka diorang camna skali pun aku kena tetap senyum sbab diorang customer.  Lagak camsial pun aku kena senyum. Tak tau apa2 tapi ckap mcm dah pro giler. Bahkan mengalahkan golongan profesional rasanya. Sib baik aku boleh tergelak dalam hati. Kalo tak dah tentu aku tergelak terbahak2 depan tu. Siap golek2 kat lantai lagik. Berlagak bagai nak rak sangat kan. Lantak lah. 

Besok akan ada satu lagi kaki lagak. Datang ngan full attire kelmarin. Kemas. Tapi agak kerek skit. Heh! Its ok. Dah biasa. Dah hantar design. Then dia suh tukar design baru padahal dia kata dia nak copy yg aku buat tu EXACTLY mcm apa yg ada dalam kad tu. Then aku kaw2 kasi dia sebijik camtu.  Dia kata dah urgent nak pakai bisnescard tu... mampus ah.. ko yg nak pakai bukan aku. Kedai kitorang ada prosedur, siap pampang besaq2 lagi kat luar kedai. Kalo nak siap awal, at least hantar sehari awal. Aku takkan bawa keje tu tuk sambung buat kat umah. Sbab masa keje is masa keje. Kat umah aku nak rehat. Baru ko hantar email tengah2 malam. MCM SIAL!!! Prosedur tetap prosedur. Nak siap awal kena bagi awal. Design ko dah lah mcm SHIT pastu suruh design EXACTLY camtu. Bila dah buat kaw2 punya sebijik ko tukar design baru plak... Bodo. Sia2 pakai baju smart.  Baik kita tukar position camtu. Blagak siap merokok dalam kedai. Busuk!!

Takpa, aku buat sbab dalam tahun nie aku kena banyak bersabar. Banyak kisah2 yg buat aku makin hari makin tabah. Makin sedar bertapa aku pentingkan kebahagiaan. Kerinduan tu satu mainan saja kalo tak dirawat sebaiknya. Hahaha... Tak kisah lah. Org bernasib malang memang slalu camni. Lagipun, aku dah tanak lagi emo2 mcm dulu2. Dah puas dah. Skrg aku cuma pikir yg terbaik. Mencuba yg terbaik. Dan berusaha yang terbaik. Tapi tolong maafkan aku sbab menyukai apa yg aku suka buat. Aku tahu dalam keputusan yg aku ambil baru2 nie akan menyakitkan perasaan ramai org. Aku juga manusia. Darah still warna merah dan bukan biru. Hidup dibumi yg sama. Cuma aku ada target sendiri. Aku nak buat apa yg aku minat dalam hidup nie. Selagi ada minat aku akan terus berusaha cari nama. Ntah lah, mungkin aku ni berlagak nak buang tebiat dan masa kot bagi diorang. Its ok JR.. Its ok..

And for those yg rasa aku sayang kat korang. JR harap korang happy2 saja yer.... Make your life as wonderful as you can coz we wont be together forever in this world. Whatever it is, be happy to have each other.

Salam,

JRp aka JR

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MEMORIES #3 : MERINDUKANMU

 

Merindukanmu

 

Saat aku tertawa di atas semua
Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Selama aku masih bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan
Ku kan slalu memujamu

Meski ku tak tahu lagi
Engkau ada di mana
Dengarkan aku ku merindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Much love,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #25 : ONLY ME, THE STAR & THE MOON

 

I was there. 

Same mood. 

Same time. 

 And same old place. 

Its been 5 years ago since the last time I went there. 

The day is no more bright for me to see,

No more lights and there's just me, 

Up the hill and just feel the breeze.

Lying on the ground doing the sky-gaze,

To the stars and the moon,

That faraway above.

So I smiled.

And  say thanks.

Deep inside, I'm happy. 

Yes, I'm happy.

 Then he said....

Stop whining and enjoy the life.

 Stop running and accept the fate.

Stop fighting and do not hate.

And stop thinking coz I'm here tonite.

**For once again** 

 **Persuading himself**

**And having his smile**

Gudnite,

JRP aka. JR

Snave Guy Lavoie JR

Syarikat Firdaus Enterprise

Wdt 501, 88905,

Kota Kinabalu, Sabah

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LIFE JOURNAL #24 : THE UNWELCOME DREAMLAND

Feels boring and empty as I woke this morning. Its like I'm lose somethin' but I cant guarantee about it coz dats just my RINDU2-kind of feeling maybe. I woke up 3 times this morning and I've never done such thing before. I woke up and go outside, wondering dis and dat, go survey the kitchen and get back to the room and ZZZZZZZZ summore. Again n again. I dunno but its just dat I dun really have any plan pun for today. In this kepala-hotak is zero other than trying to find out what is the ending to my dream last nite. Yeah. Its been 2 day straight I got a dream. Bukan mimpi basah yer... But still ada jugak ehem2 lah. tapi bila bangun tak basah ok. I dunno whether is a vision for me. Tellin' me dat something good or bad might happen onward. Heh!!! Still enjoying life is the most important!!!

Saturday. I was dreaming about my big bro. I cant recall hows the story started but its end-up like this....

I just got back from KL and arrived KK safety. I got home and unpack the stuffs. And I found abg's handphone in my bag. Heh!!! Pasai apa plak??? With a millions of ??? sign, I end-up the story with pening2 lalat after I woke up... Tryin' to get back 2 sleep again n again just to know the end of the story but its spoiled. I cant really go back into dat dream. And  thats what happened on Saturday!

Sunday. Yeah, dawn this morning. I dreamed the same issue but in different situation. And its my phone dat gone missing. The dream goes like this..

Its happened dat I'm goin' home after a stressful job on dat day. As I climb upstair, counting the stairs one by one. And I fainted there. Heh!!! Tak pernah dalam sejarah cek pengsan!!! Tak kelas sungguh mimpi nie.. cek menchik!!! haha.... Then I woke up naked (dalam mimpi saja noh, bukan betul2) in a room with my EX lying beside me... Heh!!! Watta Fufu!!! Yeah, I'm very shocked!!! But then I feel warm being hugs tight like dat. It reminds me with the OLD-DAYS long time ago!! Aiyoo... I stand up and put my clothes on. AND!!! I found my phone was gone. Phone again??? Then my ex ckap dia xtau... Then I go outside while my Ex pujuk2 me but I dun care pun other than finding my cellphone. The fon got its sentimental value so I cannot accept the lost. Even if my ex dok potpet2 beside me. And my Ex's mate (M) come out all of sudden bringing my fon to me... then M said dat my ex hide it somewhere place.. dunno... and I look deep straight to my ex's face after I grab the fon and then dia gerak menjauhi aku without saying sorry... 

Then I end-up the story after I woke up 5am in the morning. Heh!!! Tryin to get back to sleep as I really want ask my ex WHY.. WHY.. and WHY dia buat camtu.... But I hate to say dat even tryin, still I cannot jump into dat unwelcome dreamland again... FCUK!!!!

I all about our self. No matter what we do, who we love, as long as we stay loving them, then the world will never gonna treat us bad. Leaving doesnt mean we have to forget. Let the memories remain in our heart. As long as you remember then and stick their faces to your mind and heart. I love you all, 4get me for being me coz I'm not dat perfect to stay good. And again, its just a dream. We r the one who draw our own path in life.

Enjoy your Sunday n have a blast.

Much love,

JRP aka. JR

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LIFE JOURNAL #23 : IF I HAVE TO, THEN I WILL

REPEATITION. It's not like everyday I'm happy and I never wish pun supaya tak happy.. I hate repeatition. Yes! I really x1000 dont like repeating something. I mean I dont like to listen to it again n again. We've discussed about it. It's very simple to bear in mind. No option at all. Just gimme your ears to listen. As simple as that. It's not an avoidance but its a must for me to do something dat I enjoy in life. I have my own ambition n sure a passion with what I like to do. It's not like there will be no tomorrow kan.... 

EGO. Yeah!!! I admit this one but not in a wrong way. It's depend to what in ur mind. I dun wanna say dat I'm jealous even if I AM jealous. For an example lah... I dunno wat u're thinking about but as long as it makes u happy then its ok for me. I'll sure be happy too. 

PATIENT. I'll do anything whatever makes u happy. But I'm not a good pretender. Even if it takes me hundred years to be patient for you, than I will.

TOLERANT. I always bear in mind dat I will not start anything dat makes u cry, upset or sort of.. If I have to be tolerate to anybody, then I will. As long as youre there and keep smiling.
 

Its 1.34am ordy n still raining outside. Yeah, I dont feel like wanna crash into my dreamland right now.. i dunno...

***sigh

 

Dreamer,

JRP aka. JR

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LIFE JOURNAL #22 : RUN

Woke up early this morning. Arghh not worth it to think about last nite. I was there but its like I'm not really there pun. Its ok. I'm fine. Used to be like dat before. I mean almost always like dat. Forget bout dat. And I'm kinda bersemangat to go out for work. But damn, its raining  heavy early dawn this morning. Aiyooo~~~ spoil mood sangat kan. Then I continue my sleep. 

But this mornin' I found dat its Ash convocation today. Damn. Apsal Ash tak mention?? He said dat he dun want it to be heboh2 camtu. sort of lah... NO!!! Its not about heboh2, its about celebrating his big day. Its not like everyday we will celebrating something like dat... I dunno. I cannot do much pun as I am too far away to sent something or congrats him face 2 face...  but at least I do all the best for him. Its good to know dat Abg Wawa did spent his time there to see Ash. Haha.. Thank God. Thanks to abg Wawa... See Ash!!! I told u. Its not about heboh2 ke tak but its about the bond. The bond of friendship. This is what frenship really is. They'll always be there whether ure good or not. Happy or not. Sharing is Caring. But its good 2 see youre not alone there. 

Its late to go for futsal now so I better off right now. I mean RIGHT NOW!!! Gotta back home a bit late tonite. I wanna go survey for sports-shoes at pasar budget coz my 3rd time Mount Kinabalu International Climbthon is around.  It will be on 23rd n 24th of October. Damn!!! Neves3!!!  hahaha.. so see you guys then... 

Later.

Much Love,

JRP aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #21 : ANOTHER STEPS FORWARD

This morning I was like stupid to stay awake until 3am. Its not like I dun wanna sleep but this eyes dont want me to. Masih segar bugar lagik masa tu. But still paksa juga nak tido, coz its a must. I mean a couples of hour is better then nothing. Yelah, kalo tak tido kang ada yang cekak pingang tunjuk bulu ketiak.. MUAHAHAHAHA~~~~ And as usual, I got another 1 hour to sleep in the bus. Sampai around couples minutes before 10am camtu. Yelah, JR kan 2nd big boss. hehe~~~ Dont really do much except the daily task. I mean the boring one. Then 4.30pm sharp and I'm leaving the building. Home n go for bola sepak. After dat go for jog. Damn I need more stimana.. makin semput!!! ! *&@x*#!@#* sangat2!! Enuf talk! Serious mode please!

And this thing that keep bothering me. I mean it connect so much with my life. My future. And I made my decision. I choose not to choose. I dont need options coz it make my life miserable. Its not like I dun want pun but then I can make my life better by doing so. I made my step. Another step forward. And I hope that I wont be regret for what I've planned for my life.

"When in doubt, take another step."

I still remember those words. And I think dat this is the best sentences to describe with what am I really facing right now. I know dat it will hurt me a bit. But if it can make me happy then I wont stop trying. Never will I. As long as I'm happy, then it would be fine. And now, I've planned ordy and I just have to wait for the right time to start. Just as I planned. Eventho the boss said to me this morning about another big project. It makes me in doubt. Hesitate with my plan. Yeah! Its surely can disturb my plan. But still the offer is better than nothing. 

 

3 days to decide. As the boss mentioned. 

Arghhhhhh~~~~~

Dilemma, 

Jrp aka. JR

LIFE JOURNAL #20 : SOON OR LATER

Dear God, 

Thanks dat becoz of you I can smell future before its happen. I can predict tomorrow before it became yesterday. I wish not to make a wish. But still, its just yesterday. Yesterday. It seems not enough for me. I dun want any options. I dun want any excuses. And I dun wan anything from you. I was there and I'm happy. I tried to avoid. But I dun want to put the blame on you. I know youre there for me. Show them what you've got. I wont hate anybody. I wont do such things. But please, give me a chance to find my missing puzzle. Give me strength for tomorrow. Give me strength for today. And please dun ever take my heart out.. coz I'll find the missing puzzle by myself..

And thanks for loving me, promise is just a promise. Well that's what according to them. Thanks for the good day.

Amen.

Dumb2-guy,

JRP aka. JR