LIFE JOURNAL #74 : ITS LIKE ONCE A YEAR

Dah dua hari gigi aku sakit...masuk harini hari ke tiga.. 

Start sakit sbab makan apa ntah sampai koyak rabak gusi..

Membengkak plak tu.. haish... dua tiga hari nie aku dok muka ketat jelah layan customer..

Still jugak aku senyum2 kambeng lah... HARUS! 

Diorang tengok aku tak senyum pun sure suka kat aku jugak.. haha..

Pastu dalam aku sakit2 gigi tu of coz lah demam pun menyerang... Aku nak sangat mengadu n rasa ada org nak ambik tau.. bila sakit mcm nie... Since my parents this lately not looking so well tuk aku nak mengadu2 bagai kat diorang since diorang pun ada masalah masing2.. which is my dad is struggling with his illness and of coz mum with her bising2 ada je tak kena tu since adik aku sorang tu jenis pemalas skit.... with that as a son aku redha je diam... 

sakit hati diam. betul salah diam. cukup tak cukup diam. mcm slalu aku buat.. 

since the rest of the family sibuk ngan hal masing2.. 

Nasib baik aku ada blog nie tuk luah perasaan.. 

ntahlah..

 Then i found this pic. Sangat2 simbolik tuk org yg sakit kepala...

Ambil dua tablet then bisuk call dat Guy above...

Haish.. mencarutt... haha...

Life is always dramatic. Believe me.

LIFE JOURNAL #73 : BENGANG!!!

Jumaat lepas siap bertekak ngan sorang lelaki cina regarding laptop dia.. dia nak format laptop tapi tak bagi charger... So technician ckap xnak buat kalo dia tak bagi charger.. Sya bleh buat tapi sya tanak ikut campur dalam bisnes yg satu lagi nie.. cukup lah takat menguruskan kedai printing tu.. Actualy there's a law dalam buka kedai baiki pc/laptop nie.. 1st:equipment mesti lengkap.. means dalam hal ni  kitorang kene lah ada charger universal so xperlu minta charger owner yg nak baiki laptop tu... so dia start bising2 bagai mcm minah kene rogol meracau2.. so bila benda ni bukan under JR, sbab masa tu technician yg sepatutnya ada lawatan ke Unimas.. and budak cina tu start bising2 buat JR yg busy ngan keje ni tambah stress.. so dia dapat lah ayat2 keras yg buat dia rasa tanak pegi kat kedai ni lagi.. (padan muka, sapa suh belagak..) kalo takat dia pacak muka ketat bising2.. ingat JR goyang ka.. hell no! Bab2 menguji panas baran tu lah yg paling JR minat. haha.. 

Dia siap ckap ayat nie, "kalo rumah saya sana airport punya jauh pun sya mau datang ambil itu charger ka?" Nampak sangat budak ni bodoh, lembab, bebal dan nak kena sulah hidup2..

1) Kalo umah jauh, buat apa datang jauh2 just nak fomat komputer?? Area KK kan lagi banyak kedai repair komputer?? walaupun dia ckap KALAU.. Still, hati panas wei..

2) Apa kene mengena umah dia dalam hal nie? kitorang minta charger bukan tanya jarak umah dia dari kedai tu.. walaupun dalam konteks yg dia cuba sampaikan jelas iaitu kejadian itu menyusahkan dia.. tapi dia tak tau yg dia menyusahkan saya, menambah dosa saya nak marah2 dia, mengangu emosi sya, dan melambatkan keje saya...

So I end-up the scene with this drama2 talks..

JR : 

Ok skrg u bising2 pun x guna.. skrg sya bagi u pilihan.. 

1. u mau format u punya laptop u ambik charger kasi sini. 

2. U xnak kasi charger u tunggu lah technician balik dari Sarawak..

atau u angkat balik u punya laptop??

Budak Cina : 

(senyap ngan muka tak puas hati dia tu..)

JR : 

Tadi u call sya busy.. 

Sudah sya kasitau awal2 sya cuma ambil order..

Itu kerja2 smua technician yg buat.. 

Sbab ini barang bukan under kerja sya... 

U datang bising2 buat sya lagi stress..

U mau format ka tidak..

Budak Cina : 

Takpa.. nanti sya ambik charger..
(reti pulak berbahasa lembut padahal tadi dtang mcm taiko.. camsial..)

So selang beberapa minit dia datang bawa charger laptop dia and sya remind dia untuk jgn call melainkan sya yg call dia kalau laptop tu sudah siap.. Padan muka. Marah wei.. dia gangu keje n emosi sya ngan lagak bodoh dia tu..

Yg kesian bila staff sya jadi trauma tengok perangai sya yg slama nie diam2 senyum happy jadi camtu.. Seharian tanak ckap ngan sya plak tu.. asyik buat2 busy je...  I think I shud say apologise kat budak cina tu nanti.. tak kisah lah sapa salah sapa betul... nampak sangat perangai panas baran nie susah nak hilang.. I shud make thing back to normal and try to gain back what lost - a trust.

Bad day for me, haish..

LIFE JOURNAL #72 : LIFE THIS LATELY

Its seem like I can handle this messy thang a bit.. for this far I've moved..  I feel so thanks to God. Sometime this feeling just killing me damn softly.. Of coz there's a time i'll missing people kan... tipu sangat lah kalo kata tak... but I manage to move on till this stage.. I dunno its been how many days  or many weeks maybe, but yeah.. still i'm happy. I wish to stay at this condition - hopefully.

Life?? Not much happened this lately, been busy with my job - as usual. Get home late everyday.. and bila sampai umah ngan lemah longai camtu smua dah tido... busan!! Nak bawa sembang sapa erk? Seriously, Nobody! I have nobody to talk with pun bila dah balik umah malam2 camtu...I wish dat my cats can talk.. so xda lah bosan2.. bleh bawa bercerita tiap2 malam sebelum tido.. siap Miko tu reti urut lagi tapi kuku dia kuar masa urut.. menchik.. haha..

Lain2 hal? Keje - always busy. Semenjak azali lagi kan.. keje apa lah yg tak perlu susah2 tapi tiap2 bulan bleh eat-blind-salary gitu.. haha.. Gaji nie nak beli kasut joging baru lah.. competiton tinggal hampir sebulan je.. matiler tak cukup practise.. mana bleh kalah ngan abg shah, abg heri, abg arel and the rest of thier gang.. hahaha.. xpe, kali nie aku bajet murah aje.. beli kat pasar malam.. hahaha..

Abg Busuk : Jgn kuat emo.. JR ok je nie..

D'Masiv - Rindu Setengah Mati

LIFE JOURNAL #71 : A PUPPET

I feel like stupid when everytime I'm tellin' the truth but they think I'm lying. I dun want them to believe pun.. bcoz i just tell them what they wanna know.. but when they keep on asking, so what do they expect me to say? Say something dat makes them happy?? cheating or make-up some story?? I dunno. Sometime I feel like I shud better keep on silent than telling them what they want to know... And for what i'm doin' and makin' myself looks like stupid just to make some people happy.. I think I shud keep on silent... yeah.. org tak perasan pun akan kewujudan aku... emo lah.. apa lah... tu je yg aku balik2 dengar... sombong lah ape lah... mana2 lah labu... asyik aku saja kena mengalah... penat weii... apapun I just wanna wish everyone happy always jugak... moga sehat2 saja... of coz lah untuk those yg pernah kenal aku.... rasanya aku tetap boleh bahagia jadi stalker je kot.. better than do nothing.. at least i got some effort...

Dun care lah about that.. all I know dat I'll keep my full attention to anybody yg aku kenal, pernah kenal or macam pernah kenal since some of them makes me feel like i'm dead ordy.. yeah.. invisible gitu... but I dun expect them to do the same just like what i do..  like people say, "they deserve best for thier life" - maybe. 

There's no issue sebenarnya.. masalah kecik je.. but please.. I just tell them what they wanna know... as long as it stay at the safe line.. for me.. for you.. for us both.. even for them.. with that I just wanna say sorry to those yg kenal ngan aku, pernah kenal atau baru nak kenal2... 

Special wish for those yg pernah jadi pelita2 hidup aku masa sedih2... I wish u people just doin fine out there.. **of coz they are..  Wtvr.. Its 3.20am and I got driving test tomorow... erk.. I mean today.. this morning.. 

My life this lately?? I rather say, I'M FINE!! (u know how is it feel to be lying.. wtvr..)

much love,

MEMORIES #11 : LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE

SKYLAR GREY - LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE

On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don’t know why i’m still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you’ll always be my hero
Even though you’ve lost your mind

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
           Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
           Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
 I love the way you lie
 I love the way you lie

Now there’s gravel in our voices
Glasses shattered from the fight
In this tug of war you always win
Even when i’m right

Cause you feed me fables from your head
With violent words and empty threats
And it’s sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
       Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
          Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
 Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

So maybe i’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave
Till the walls are going up
In smoke with all our memories
      
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
       Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
           Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
  Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

That's y I lost u,

MEMORIES #10 : PERFECT

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated
Misplaced
Misunderstood
Miss knowing it's all good
It didn't slow me down.

Mistaking
Always second guessing
Underestimating
Look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead
So complicated
Look how we all make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game

It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same

Oh

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

The whole worlds scared
So I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking
Is an ice cold beer

So cool in line
And we try, try, try
But we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics
Cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans
They don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves
And we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeeeeaaaahhh
Oooooooh
Oh baby pretty please

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

You're perfect, you're perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

Missing them,

LIFE JOURNAL #70 : LIFE

 

 

 Bahawa yang singkat itu WAKTU,

Yang dekat itu MATI,

Yang besar itu NAFSU, 

Yang berat itu AMANAH,

Yang sulit itu IKHLAS,

Yang mudah itu BERBUAT DOSA,

Yang abadi itu AMAL KEBAJIKAN,

Yang akan di investigasi itu AMAL PERBUATAN,

Yang jauh itu MASA LALU.

 

 **Sekadar kehidupan di dunia 'Copy&Paste'

 

Be yourself.. 

Be humble

Never show-off

and love will come to you.

 

Much love,

 

LIFE JOURNAL #69 : A COMBINATION

I bought this shoe last nite.. after i done with my futsal training... dah lama nak beli tapi takda masa sangat nak pegi.. dek sibok ngan koje memanjang sajork.. Hidup lintang pukang siapkan permintaan customer..kurang tido.. tapi ok gak kurang tido... means jr tak perlu nak jaga badan takut gemuk ke ape ke... badan still maintain slim hebat dan bergaya.. muahahaha~~

(like i care!)

JR suka kombinasi hijau, kuning, biru dan putih. Its either biru ngan putih or sebaliknya. Atau hijau ngan kuning (Brasil) or sebaliknya dan putih ngan hitam ngan sebaliknya... Semalam tu buta mata melihat kasut sama yg pelbagai color.. dengan combination yg agar meliurkan juga... contoh merah ngan kuning... merah ngan hitam.. Takpe bulan lepas angkat satu lagi.. muahahaha~~~

Plan nak ambil color kuning and stripes tu color hijau.. dah ada tapi masalahnya memang kerap menyakitkan hati JR ni bila nak beli saiz takda... dah habis saiz kaki JR... Kalo tak bawa duit.. baru nak sampai stock baru... sangat2 keji tahap otromen berak sambil berfacebook tauuu arghhhh... geram sangat2.... So nak tanak JR kena lah ambik color nie.. ok juga lah sbab still dalam kategori color febret jr... Lagi mahal skit lah dari yg jr nak tu.. mahal rm40 hengget... nak barang baik tak perlu berkira so jr angkat sepasang jelah... kan bulan depan bleh tengok lagi kot2 dah sampai stock baru ke..

Harini JR cuti so nak gerak pi KK lah nak cari kot2 ada buku2 novel bergambar baru.. last time JR baca yg nie.. Well i wanna tell u people dat this is not an ordinary book. 

Its contained values in life dat sometime u dont realize eventho youre doing it.. 

Dats becoz youre doin it perfectly and you didnt conscious about it..

You feel wants to love by the time you lost it... 

And this book just WOW me.. just like dat..  really worth it to buy.. 

Plus, the sketch is not just an ordinary sketch.. its direct sketch using paint sketch..

tak banyak kaki komik yg mampu buat camtu.. 

dah tu pegi lah cari kat kedai komik.. 

btw, this is no ordinary comic book yer...

U'll love it by the time you finish readin' it.

That's confirmed!!!

Anyway, gotta go.. till next time fellas..

Sendiri lebih baik,